I guess I have been sleeping way too much already since Thursday. Slept the whole of Thursday, slept once I reached home from work on Friday and continue the whole of Saturday and today. Terrible. So much so that I am suffering from a headache now...
For the whole of today, have been contemplating whether or not should I go for Sharizal's birthday. Dear called me. Asked me if I want to go. If I am going, he will go with me?!?!?! For a moment, I was actually loss for words. He is willing to go with me??? So sweet of him... But for me, I was half-hearted in going. In the end, he decided that we should just stay at home. However, I did not want such a chance to slip by. So I message him, telling him that I want to go. See if he still wants to go. He did not reply then.
I still went ahead to have my bath and get ready to leave the house. Went to Hougang Mall to get his present 1st. Very last minute thing. Wanted to bring Millie along. So that I will be bored... So that I will have a chance to leave early. But when I said Dear is coming along, she did not want to tag along anymore. =)
Bought him perfume. Cannot remember the brand already.
On my way there, Joey called me. Asked me where I was. Tried to persuade her to go to Sharizal's house as well. But it was raining heavily and I guess she was lazy to leave home as well. Did not join us in the end.
I did not know anyone there when I reached. Just tried to get along with people there. Around 7pm, Parvin and Fida came. Jealousy just sub-consciously creep into me. Why has Dear been mentioning about her name quite often recently? Even shared the burger bought for him!!! When her handphone rang, the first thought that came to my mind, "Is it Dear who is calling her now?" Sometimes I do not know if I am right to be suspicious or am I over-reacting...
Dear did not come as well. Was too tired to do so. He was not feeling well as well.
I left after having a slice of his cake. Messaged Dear that I left already. He just replied with a "Ok". At that moment, I suddenly feel so alone, feel so neglected. I miss HIM... I miss MUMMY... I want him to give me the assurance that I have felt before. It seems to be diminishing already...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
1:23 PM